A little behind?

Last post March 3rd! Yes, I’m a little behind. I just don’t know what to do with this blog anymore. And I know that budget posts are not that exciting :lol: I feel pretty busy and when I think about blogging, half of the time I don’t know what to say, and if I say it who will care anyway?!

I have been busy. Work is slightly starting to pick up, but not enough for me to get excited at all about it. My days are just filled with working out, work, and then dinner and some web-surfing.

I did read a book though! I haven’t read an actual book in forever. It was called Black Dog Summer by Miranda Sherry and I quite enjoyed it. I picked up another from the library and started it, but I realized it was last in a big series – 10 books – so I quit reading it after 2 chapters. So next time I go to the library I’ll get another book, or read one here that I haven’t yet.

Active life is still the same. I am going to do the last workout of the Beginner Blast-off in Train to be Awesome today! Then I will do a reload week and then get on with the next phase. I’ve been trying to run on days when I’m not lifting and that’s going well too. I’m just doing lower miles, kind of following a 15k training plan. I’m not getting injured, well, I did fall yesterday morning but I think I’m okay!

And of course there is the weight loss department. I am keeping track of stuff but not weighing/checking in very often. In March I did weigh more than I wanted to and I realized I didn’t really like it. So in April I’m not going to weigh or measure at all. It will be a little hard, but I’ve made up my mind and so that’s that. Anyway, the March results were pretty good. I lost 2.6 pounds, 1% body fat (according to my scale), and .5 inches. Not bad for eating what I want, which includes ice cream, pizza, frozen yogurt, you name it. I’ve been eating it. And I’m not counting a thing or excluding anything. It’s really brainless, and I love that part. Am I losing very slowly? Sure am. This year so far I am down about 7 pounds. In 3 months that doesn’t sound like a lot. But I’ll repeat myself and say that I am absolutely sure that this time I am truly working on making sustainable habit changes, and this slow weight loss is going to stick! The only downside is that it is so easy, that that in itself makes it harder than anything I’ve ever done :lol: It is always more exciting to start some stupid new diet plan or count calories and calculate everything I will do. Now I just eat I what I want and move my body. There is no calorie goal, no burn goal, not even a weight goal or an end date. I’m just changing my life, for life, and it is hard to give the energy I was using up on all of that crap to something else. It is definitely a process.

Anyway, that’s that for now!

Checking in

With health and stuff. I am still back and forth on the weighing thing, but for now I guess I don’t really care if I do or don’t. I am trying to not weigh most days. But I am going to for sure check in at the beginning of the month, with weight and measurements and pictures. So, since December 1st I am down 2.75 inches, and since January 1st I am down 4.6 pounds. That averages out to be .5 pounds per week. Pretty much what I was planning on. Is it painfully slow sometimes? Yes! But, I am confident that this time around I am going to be able to keep it off.

Workouts have been good. Today I finished workout #15 of 24 from Train to be Awesome. Only 9 more left! I could probably keep going with the beginner program, but I really just want to move on to something different, not that I’m bored or not liking it. I do like it. The workouts are taking me about 1 hour and 10 minutes, including warm up time. I take as much rest as I need and do 1-2 warm up sets. Today I was able to squat with 90# on the machine, and I did quite a few pull-ups with one knee in the resistance band. I’ve also been trying barbell hip thrusts, not much on the bar, only 30#. I tried that today and I think I can work my way up pretty quickly.

I missed being on a running schedule so I’m going to try a 10k training program. It goes for 10 weeks and has minimal mileage so I don’t think it will interfere with strength training. I’ll just do the runs on my off days from weights. I do my first 2 mile run tomorrow morning. We are supposed to get a big storm tonight so I hope it doesn’t ice all over!

So yeah, losing a little fat, gaining a little muscle (hopefully :lol), all while doing my best to chill out and eating exactly what I want to. Including ice cream, almost daily. Also chocolate, pizza, bread every day – and veggies, fruit, fish, nuts. Nothing is off limits, I’m just eating when I’m hungry and trying not to eat too much. Eating what I really want keeps me from feeling deprived or like I need to rebel, so I don’t end up overdosing on m&ms. Novel idea.

Checking in

With goals and stuff.

I have stopped weighing every day, or even doing a weekly weigh-in. I hope to someday move away from weighing at all, I think? I’m not sure. For now I’m just doing it when I really want to. I have started taking pictures and measuring too. Since my goal is more of a recomp thing, I figure that pictures and measurements will help to see progress more than weighing. Last time I weighed I was down a pound in 13 days or something. And my measurements were down half an inch. I keep telling myself I want to go slow, and it is working. Working on my impatient brain is the real trick here. That’s what usually leads me to last chance eating/drinking before I start my next new plan! And then fail again :lol: SO do not want to do that again.

Also, still booze free. I wanted January to be over so badly, and now it is. I can count one month done instead of days, which seems easier because, less counting. I still don’t feel amazingly awesome and like life is perfect, but that may never happen. I am glad I’m not drinking.

I’ve been doing the Train to be Awesome workout, though I missed a couple of days last week due to working too freaking much and zero desire to do more than that! I am back at it this week though. Today I am doing workout #6, only 18 more to go.

I am still off and on with the Spanish. Actually I was doing pretty well logging into Dueling every day until I started working too much. I just need to start logging in again. But where I left off is so confusing! It is past tense stuff and I just don’t get it yet.

No crafting to speak of, well except in the kitchen. I’m always busy doing something in there! But I haven’t been knitting or sewing or anything. I’m thinking about it though, and that’s a step, right?

Yummy Birthday Food

I turned 38 today, this is getting way too close to 40! It’s really weird thinking that I am that old. I don’t feel that old!

We celebrated my birthday last night. I made this really good bolognese, these pepperoni garlic knots, and my daughter made a delicious coconut cake. I don’t think I have ever had coconut cake before last night, but it is definitely a winner!! It was all so yummy.

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Pepperoni garlic knots

Coconut cake

Coconut cake

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And that is really all there is to say about that.

I am late on the budget post, but honestly we went way over. Embarrassingly so. I will post it anyway, and try to recover in the next month – it may take that long!!

 

Missed my anniversary!

Yesterday was my quit smoking for good anniversary! It’s been 10 years. Go me!

Weighing and checking in

We are 10 days into the new year, so I’m checking in with my goals and weighing in. On January 1st I weighed in at 152.2 and 37.5% body fat (yikes). Today I am 150.4 and 36%. So down 1.8 pounds and 1.5% body fat. Not bad! I have truly been eating what I want, and really trying to just eat when I’m hungry. Some days are better than others. I’ve been eating ice cream for dessert almost every day, although today it was 1 1/2 chocolate gluten free cupcakes made by M. Gluten free only because K has given up wheat and she wanted to make something for all of us. They were still very tasty! I made a big pot of chicken breast and white beans mid-week and I’ve eaten those 4 days in a row. Right now I almost don’t even care what I eat, just trying to do mostly balanced meals, though I’m kind of slacking on vegetables. So I am going to try and eat more veg. Need to make another big salad to have at the ready, and just cook a veg or two with dinner no matter what.

One problem I’ve had the last few days is eating too late in the afternoon, making me not really hungry at dinner time. I’ve eaten anyway, something small, but I’d like to not wait so long so that I can be hungry for and enjoy dinner more.

I also exercised yesterday for the first time in weeks! I got on the treadmill in the morning and warmed up with walking for 5 minutes and then alternated running at 5 mph for about 3 minutes with walking for 2 minutes. I finished with 5 minutes of walking for a total of 45 minutes. It felt good. So I will do it more often. As part of listening to my body, I’m just going to do what I feel like. I’m not going to do some set schedule or training program (unless I want to!), just going to do what feels good and not too overwhelming. Hopefully I will avoid burnout that way.

In other goals, I have been doing some knitting but not much else. I need to break out the sewing machine and do something with that. I have projects to finish and some to just share pictures of. I could be doing more, so I’m going to aim for just 10 minutes a day of some kind of crafting.

I haven’t been doing any Spanish lessons :( I just need to get going on it. I will get some done today, and try to reach my goal for points every day.

Last but not least, still not drinking. It’s only been 10 days but a couple of them have been really long ones :lol: Not that I’m counting down really, but only 355 more to go.

Time-sucks

I have been ‘wasting’ a lot of time on Pinterest and Food52 lately! It isn’t really wasting time, of course. I’ve been googling food blogs of all different kinds of cuisine, and have added quite a few yummy sounding and looking indian and colombian dishes on my Pinterest.

I also just re-discovered Food52. I had heard of it before but never really spent too much time on it. Yesterday I signed up and starting saving away recipes and articles. The Dinner vs. Child column is pretty funny to read, and this one on kid’s lunches is pretty interesting, although I’m pretty sure my kid would never give up her ham sandwiches and eat like that. It all inspires me to make our meals a little more interesting and to get more variety in, try new things. Even if the rest of the people in the house aren’t adventurous I will do it for me :D

I’m excited to try these 4 hour baguettes!  And celery soup with almost a whole stick of butter :lol

Some more finds that I really want to make:

Colombian roasted chicken legs

Crispy beef

Swiss chard cobbler with cornmeal biscuits

Buffalo ranch popcorn

I even saved a recipe for Chicken Liver Pate. It was late ;)

If I end up making any of these I’ll be sure to share the results!

 

 

Some hats I never showed you

Just trying to catch up with some knits that never quite made it to the blog, or even Ravelry!

This one is a slouchy beret made from my own handspun. More details on Ravelry, made way back in 2011.

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This one is the Hedgehog hat from Knitty.com, made from Noro Kureyon in a really different colorway. It turned out to be quite a hat! I made this one in December 2013.SAM_1690

The last one is another from my handspun yarn, the pattern is Sugar Maple Hat. Apparently I finished knitting it in just one day! I started it on the 23rd and finished it Christmas Eve. I really like it.

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There you go!

A New Year

Happy New Year! I know lots of people think resolutions are stupid and pointless, but when I really decide I’m going to do something, I follow through. My main resolution is to not drink alcohol this year. And I know I’m going to follow through! I had a last blast on NYE and so I felt like total garbage yesterday. I don’t want to feel like that ever again! I think this long break will be just what I need.

I’m also going to try and lose weight, story of my life I guess. I am just going to get back to running and lifting, and the plan is to train for 2 half marathons this year. Both will take 3 months to train for. Maybe I will tack one more on there, we’ll see. I had many thoughts of going on a juice fast again just to lose the weight quickly, but that hasn’t worked long term, and I want to do something different. I’ve decided that this year I am just going to try intuitive eating. No counting calories, no other plan, just going to try and eat what I like, when I’m hungry and not too much. We’ll see where it gets me. So I guess I’m publicly committing to not count any calories or do any crazy things like juice fast this year. I’m just going to try to chill out and be and eat normal :lol: Even if I only lost 1/2 a pound a week, I could still be down 26 pounds in a year. That is probably going to be more realistic and sustainable, since it probably won’t involve huge deficits. I think that makes me feel restricted, even if I am eating things I like. There probably is something to eating to your activity level, so you don’t end up burning out and feeling worn down.  Duh!

Anyway I hope to blog more about my journey and be a bit more interesting, helpful, whatever. Share more recipes and knitting and whatever else :)

Plans for the new year

I know I’ve been absent for a couple of weeks.  I hurt my foot really stupidly, I was on a footstool putting things up high in a closet and I kind of crashed down on my other foot while half missing the step. Hard to explain – and really stupid! I haven’t wanted to run on it for fear of hurting it more, so no running. I have no excuse really for not keeping up with lifting, other than just enjoying the holiday season – a little too much. Probably not the best idea, but I am just kind of planning what I’m going to do for next year. There isn’t that much of this one left now anyway.

The biggest thing is that I am just going to completely give up alcohol in 2015. I know I ‘tried’ this before, but I am ready to do it and so it’s on. I’m just over it and I don’t need it, so I’m kicking it to the curb for the whole year. I’m excited!

I keep thinking about marathon training but I just don’t think that it is a good idea for me – yet. I’m just going to train for a couple of half marathons this year, but really put a lot into them and hopefully improve my running speed. Then in 2016 I will think really seriously about the marathon. I want to do one before I’m 40! Because it sounds cool ;) And I still need some redemption. I will also add strength in 2-3 times a week. Because I don’t want to get injured!

So I still am not where I would like to be in regards to my body and weight. Maybe I should just give it up after all of these years of really getting nowhere, but I just can’t. I want to focus on it this year but in a sane and simple way. I am just going to do my best to eat intuitively, really only eat when I’m hungry and eat what I need. I don’t want to do any type of binging or restricting. I figure if I just do what I do, my body will do what it does. I want to lose weight, and I think if I give up booze and keep working out all year then it is bound to happen?! I have never tried something so simple, I’m always doing so many crazy things and going up and down. I have never just consistently kept it up. So hopefully with a year of really being consistent with working out and eating I’ll see some good changes. How am I going to really make this work? I’m going to blog more. It will be a lot more food and workout centered but I think it will help me keep accountable and on the path I want to be on. So I guess that is what most of my blog will be. I’m determined to make this year one I am completely proud of in every way, and lose some weight in a sane and hopefully sustainable way too.

I also want to get back into crafting regularly. I have tons of supplies downstairs and they just never come out. It makes me sad :( I’m going to try and make more gifts for people this year to use up my stash and I will give away anything I don’t think that I am ever really going to use. I will just make a commitment to do something, even if it is only 10 minutes a day.

I also want to finally learn Spanish! I’ve been doing some Duolingo but not being super consistent. I could do a lot better with it. I want to do some every day, a couple of times a day. And check out some other books that I think will help me learn more too. I have plenty of tools I just need to use them!

So there are my main goals for 2015. I know it is totally cliche to make New Year’s Resolutions but I have to try.