Not losing muscle and my week in workouts

I weighed in again this morning. I’m up .2 pounds to 137.6, but my body fat% is down .5 to 31%. I’ll take the lower body fat% any day!

Now, I know that the body fat readings on scales are not completely accurate. But I do think it is good for showing trends. I was looking at when I started this year, at 152.2 pounds and 37.5% body fat. I still can’t even believe that it was that high. Anyway, I’m down almost 15 pounds and 6.5% body fat. My lean body mass has almost stayed the same. That would mean I am not losing any muscle! I say that is a good thing :)

So that talk the other day about overthinking and wanting to change stuff, well maybe I should just stick to what I have been doing because it is obviously working. And it is EXACTLY what I wanted to do.

I still do want to stop eating so much ice cream LOL I am eating more than a serving every night. Sometimes I realize I’m not enjoying it as much as I used to, but there are times like last night when I just can’t get enough really. I’m not feeling uncomfortable after I eat dinner and ice cream, like overfull or anything. So I guess there’s that. I don’t know, I am at least going to stop buying it from the store, and just make some when I want some. So maybe that will curb the habit a bit. We’ll see what happens this week. My workouts left me feeling worked over this week for sure. Here’s what I did:


Went for a 6 mile run. My average pace was 9:19!! I’m using my new Fitbit Surge and I really can’t say how accurate it is, but whatever. That pace is possible for me. I am loving being able to get out on the parkway instead of the streets, so I go mostly on the dirt trails. That’s more fun anyway.


TTBA Workout 1. My workouts take me around an hour with a warmup. This one has trap bar deadlifts and we didn’t have a trap bar before so we bought one for this. The bar alone weighs 75 pounds!!! I managed to add 50 more and do my deadlifts. It was tough. There are also some single leg deadlifts that I hadn’t done in a long time. This one left me feeling very sore.


TTBA Workout 2. I tried ring pushups and was successful! I wasn’t able to go down very far, but in the past I haven’t been able to do them at all.


Early morning run! I did 3 miles with a warmup and then a little stretching. I never have enough time to stretch with these early runs.


TTBA Workout 3. The rear foot elevated split squats did me in! They always do.


TTBA Workout 4. I tried mixed grip chin ups for the first time and they are HARD. Up until now I have been doing a neutral grip every time. I am using two different assistance bands and for these I had to use the thicker one for more assistance. Again, hard!

Saturday was a rest day! I am going to get out for another quick run this morning, probably just 3-4 miles.

Phase 2 begins

I started Phase 2 of TTBA this week! I only did one weights workout last week and so I am SORE this week! I am having to do some mods because my right arm is giving me all kinds of hell lately. I’m not sure what to do. If I were smart, I’d probably go to the doctor. But I don’t even know who I would go see. I guess if it is still bugging me in a while I will think about going. Anyway, the workouts seem shorter so far and it is really nice to be doing something different. I found I out I really suck at some things, like one leg hip thrusts. So there is a lot of room for improvement in this phase! I have also decided to try doing 4 workouts instead of 3, so I will be doing less running too. And I should finish the phase in 6 weeks versus 8. We’ll see how it goes.

I’m really battling the overthinking of things these past couple of weeks. At the beginning of this year I decided I would just change two things. I would not drink any alcohol, and I would work out consistently with a focus on lifting. I have been doing that, but I’m starting to feel like it isn’t enough. Which is kind of stupid, because according to all of my data, I’m doing fine. I’m starting to see some biceps even! But looking at myself in the mirror every day makes it hard to see changes. And the changes that are happening are SLOW and SMALL. So I guess I’m getting impatient. I actually went to the IIFYM page to look at a calculator. Then I realized that for me and most people who are not athletes or fitness competitors, macros really don’t matter that much. And really there is no way I would meet the carb goals it set for me – I just like carbs too much! Yesterday I tracked calories too. I ended up with this at the end of the day:

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That was coffee, a piece of leftover frittata and some banana bread for breakfast. Lunch was a peanut bar and a caprese salad bowl (and I’m just realizing I forgot the fig bar I ate too). Dinner was two bean tacos with cheese and sour cream. I also had some ice cream and two pieces of taffy. That was restraint! LOL As far as with the treats anyway! That was a pretty good day, and it is probably just enough of a deficit to make me lose .5 pounds a week if that were every day.

I’m trying not to pick it apart, and I know I won’t be tracking food every day again, but I could do better with less ice cream and I could try to get in more protein. I think I will at least try on the protein and see what happens.

Finished phase 1! And a weigh-in.

Friday was my final workout in phase 1 of Train to be Awesome!! I’m well on my way to completing the whole program! I started it back in April, took a month off due to being sick and then being really fatigued in May, started back up in June and I am finally done now. Now I will do a deload week and then get back at it, starting phase 2. It will be fun to switch up exercises. I was starting to get a little bored. So phase 2 will probably take me another 8 weeks and then I retest markers to see how much progress I made.

It’s kind of funny though, I was so excited to be done, and then really soon after I was over it. Kind of a let down lol. No big fanfare, just time to move on. It IS a big deal though, seeing how I have never finished any program or even part of a program before. I always just quit. So I am pretty proud of myself for sticking with it this long. I still have phase 2 to go, and then I am going to do the next part which is actually a separate part of the program. So after phase 2 I will have really finished a workout program!!

I also weighed in today. I’m at 137.2 and 31.5% body fat. That’s down 2.4 pounds and .5% body fat from last week! Just to show how slow the body fat% moves, it had been 32 for more than a month with no change. I’m getting really close to getting it under 30% now! It will take a few more months, I’m sure, but that is my next goal.

So for the whole year so far I am down 15 pounds and 6% body fat. I won’t measure until the beginning of August so I don’t know about that part, but I imagine I will only be down another inch or so (currently sitting at -7.5).

I keep thinking I would like to work more on the lean habits. Eating 3-4 meals, mastering hunger, eating just enough. But what I am doing right now seems to be working, so I guess I don’t have that much motivation to change lol. I am not eating all day long, and I do try to just eat meals while waiting for hunger. It just always feels like my meals are stretched out at work, and then I have a big dinner with treats every night. Last night I skipped dinner and just went right for the ice cream and m&m’s! Well, after a big bowl of cereal with milk. It was a stressful (and fun) Free Slurpee Day. Anyway about the habits, I guess I will keep trying but not stress about it. The point is to wait for hunger and then eat, without snacking and I am mostly doing that. I could try harder though. I’ll put a little more focus into it this week and see what happens.

Today I was planning on going for a run and then going to work for just a little while, but the run doesn’t sound that great. I’m tired!! It’s been a long week, month, whatever. Maybe I will and maybe I won’t.

Under 140!

Sunday is my new weigh-in day, and I couldn’t believe it when I got on and it said 139.6! I haven’t been under 140 in two years, and even then I was that weight for not very long before I rebounded yet again. The body fat % is still 32. I don’t know if it will ‘stick’, well wait a minute, yes I do. It will stick, because I am just doing what I do!

I stayed up late to watch fireworks last night and I’m feeling a little overworked so I’m probably going to skip my run today. I’m running 3 days a week, plus some intervals after weights, and weights 3 days a week. I’ve also been working every single day since mid-June I think? So yeah, after work today I’m just going to take it easy and hopefully take a nap.

Oh! I am 3 workouts away from finishing Train to be Awesome phase 1!! I have never stuck this long with a program! I always start something, get bored, and then quit. I’m super proud of myself for following through. I still have another phase, and then there is yet another (Train to be even more awesome). So it’s going to take me quite a while to finish, but I am going to finish. If I keep going with 3 workouts per week I will probably be done with the whole thing sometime in January LOL It will be worth it!

I guess that’s it. The next milestone will be getting to 135, and I want to get my body fat under 30%. That one will probably take forever though.

A weigh in

I decided to weigh in yesterday and do some measurements to see how things are going. I hadn’t measured since May, because not a lot happens that quickly. I was surprised to see that I am down 2.5 inches since then! I am also down to 140.8 and 32% body fat. I still have a long way to go, but I’m happy with my progress. And I haven’t been under 140 since my juice fast, so that will be a pretty big deal once I get there. Since January 1 this year I am down 11.4 pounds, 5.5% body fat, and 7.5 inches. And I’m pretty much still eating large amounts of ice cream every night :lol:

I could be moving things along quicker. I could start counting calories, or running a ton, or give up whole food groups (like ice cream). But I’d rather not. I’d rather keep on eating what I want without worrying about it too much. And I’m not quite ready for marathon training again, yet. (Hopefully next year!)

It is totally possible to lose weight slowly and sustainably, without restricting or deprivation. It just isn’t that exciting! And that is the hardest part :)

Anyway, happy with my progress and I’m excited to see what happens with the rest of the year, keeping my focus on lifting weights.

Just things

Things are good, and terrible at the same time :lol:

Work has been crazy lately. I have been hiring people but they only seem to be lasting a short time – a week to a month – and then quitting. One only lasted 2 days! It’s just 7-11, people. I think a lot of people just don’t want to do actual work. I am grateful for the people who are sticking around, but I have one more leaving next month and I really need to get some more people working for me! All that to say no days off for me in the near future. Not really how I want to be spending every single day, but it is what it is.

Workouts are going good. I have switched to the afternoons since I’m working at 6 am now. It isn’t my first choice but it’s going okay. I tried running outside a couple of times but it is just too damn hot! I could do it, but I don’t think it is a good idea to do more than a couple of miles. So I’m going to get reacquainted with the treadmill. I’m still doing the Train to be Awesome strength program too. Since I took such a long break I’m probably going to just add some extra workouts to the schedule. Or I might not, I haven’t decided really. Yesterday I did the 15th workout of 24. I was thinking 32 but I kind of want to just get on to the next phase. I don’t really know how much of a difference it will make anyway!

I was on Facebook the other day and started seeing some people talking about Whole30 and how awesome it is and people getting excited to start it or something like it. I was so tempted to jump on the bandwagon too, since I haven’t been losing much at all from just not caring for the month of May. I’ve pretty much stayed the same weight since May. (My body fat% has gone down a tiny bit though). Then I remembered that I don’t want to do something that I’m not planning on keeping up for life. Any eating plan has only helped me keep up the yo-yo cycle. I may be losing slowly but I know that what I am losing will be sustainable long-term. So no Whole30 for me! Besides, I like bread, and beans, and dairy. I love those things so why would I give them up? And I’ve proven for myself that there isn’t any way of eating that is going to magically make me feel better. Even if I did lose 10 pounds in a month I would surely gain it all right back from rebound eating after all of that restriction :lol:

I am just going to keep going, proving that weight loss can be done the slow way. With moderation in eating (hell even without that!) and regular exercise. I was thinking that I might even want to blog more about it. If I can make time for it. I’m going to try, anyway.

I kind of let the Lean Habits work fall away, so I’m working on getting back to those. I’ve done two days with just eating 3-4 meals. I’m going to get back to tracking it and get a solid two weeks under my belt before I add the next one again. And just keep working out and moving at work. I do want to get away from the processed food too. I’ve been getting a lot of ‘fun food’ lately and I’m finding that it isn’t really that good. So I’m going to quit buying cookies and stuff and try to eat more whole foods. I think if I only focused on those two things it will make a big difference and get things moving again.

I’d ramble some more but I’ve got to get to work!

New Fitbit!

I won a $75 gift card from Best Buy in a contest at work the other day! Since I don’t ever really shop at Best Buy, I figured I would splurge and get the new Fitbit Surge. The last thing I bought at Best Buy was probably my last Fitbit :lol

I took it out this morning for a test run. I think it worked pretty well. It seems to be accurate as far as I can tell. I will have to wear my One and Surge together for a few days and see how they match up. I didn’t take the One this morning, should have! Anyway I did 3 miles after pretty much an entire month off from any exercise. I got sick and it totally zapped me. I don’t know what it was, but it was horrible. With that and working too much, I just had no energy. I am finally getting back into the swing of things, yay!

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From my Fitbit dashboard

Also, speaking of running, I never did do my 15k ‘race’. I got sick right before I was supposed to do it :( Oh well. I don’t know if I will try again or not, doesn’t really matter in the end. I just want to get back to regular workouts. I did weights once this week and today’s run. I will try for weights again tomorrow and then go from there. My work schedule will be changing next week too, so it will be interesting trying to figure out after work running in summer weather. Have never done that so it might be tricky.

Things are happening

Another month has flown by. Time is just moving so fast lately! I think it is because I am working so much…I have been working 6 days a week for a while. Not super fun, but kind of necessary right now. I am going to get a break next weekend though, so that will be nice.

I did my no weigh April and I was really happy with how it went. I ended up losing 2.6 pounds, 1.5% body fat, and 1.5 inches. The weight is pretty typical of what I’ve been losing every month, so I was glad to see that I made the same kind of progress without the scale. I somehow managed to gain a lot of peace too! I don’t know what it is, but something has just clicked and changed and I am so happy about it. I finally feel like what I’m doing is sustainable and that it WILL last. I just know that I’m not going to keep going down the same road I always have. My weight is not going to be an issue anymore. I’m focusing on things that I can DO rather than what I weigh. There will be no rebound, or yo-yo, because I am losing slowly, keeping it off, and learning how to really listen to my body now. It will actually be a lifelong process but I am so ready to do it.

One thing that has really helped to kind of bring everything together is the book Lean Habits by Georgie Fear. I’m still working on the second habit, Hunger Mastery. The first habit is to eat 3-4 meals per day and I so wasn’t doing that in the past. I was having small snacks instead of meals, and then after dinner going back several times to the snack cupboard for another small something. Since I have been aiming for 3-4 meals per day that has totally stopped! I try to have bigger meals during the day, and I still have treats daily right after dinner. I can’t even say how much ice cream I’ve eaten this year :lol But it is working. I’m down 10 pounds, 5% body fat, and 5.25 inches so far this year. And it has been pretty easy. So easy that I can just keep going, and will keep going, and just keep building on my success :D

Of course I am still working out too. I started the TTBA phase 1 and that has been going well. It is fun to be doing something different. The beginner portion was all really basic stuff, which is what I’ve tried every time I started weights again. It was getting boring – I was seeing progress, but yeah, kinda boring. It has been fun to move on and switch it up! I’m also in the last week of my 15k training. I will do my ‘race’ this Sunday! I have taken the week off from weights because of the run, and because I was starting to feel overly tired all of the time. I hope I will feel better and have a good run this weekend.

I guess that’s that for now. Just wanted to give an update on how things are going. I have ambitions to post more, and do a lot of other things, but they aren’t coming to fruition (yet). We’ll see.

A little behind?

Last post March 3rd! Yes, I’m a little behind. I just don’t know what to do with this blog anymore. And I know that budget posts are not that exciting :lol: I feel pretty busy and when I think about blogging, half of the time I don’t know what to say, and if I say it who will care anyway?!

I have been busy. Work is slightly starting to pick up, but not enough for me to get excited at all about it. My days are just filled with working out, work, and then dinner and some web-surfing.

I did read a book though! I haven’t read an actual book in forever. It was called Black Dog Summer by Miranda Sherry and I quite enjoyed it. I picked up another from the library and started it, but I realized it was last in a big series – 10 books – so I quit reading it after 2 chapters. So next time I go to the library I’ll get another book, or read one here that I haven’t yet.

Active life is still the same. I am going to do the last workout of the Beginner Blast-off in Train to be Awesome today! Then I will do a reload week and then get on with the next phase. I’ve been trying to run on days when I’m not lifting and that’s going well too. I’m just doing lower miles, kind of following a 15k training plan. I’m not getting injured, well, I did fall yesterday morning but I think I’m okay!

And of course there is the weight loss department. I am keeping track of stuff but not weighing/checking in very often. In March I did weigh more than I wanted to and I realized I didn’t really like it. So in April I’m not going to weigh or measure at all. It will be a little hard, but I’ve made up my mind and so that’s that. Anyway, the March results were pretty good. I lost 2.6 pounds, 1% body fat (according to my scale), and .5 inches. Not bad for eating what I want, which includes ice cream, pizza, frozen yogurt, you name it. I’ve been eating it. And I’m not counting a thing or excluding anything. It’s really brainless, and I love that part. Am I losing very slowly? Sure am. This year so far I am down about 7 pounds. In 3 months that doesn’t sound like a lot. But I’ll repeat myself and say that I am absolutely sure that this time I am truly working on making sustainable habit changes, and this slow weight loss is going to stick! The only downside is that it is so easy, that that in itself makes it harder than anything I’ve ever done :lol: It is always more exciting to start some stupid new diet plan or count calories and calculate everything I will do. Now I just eat I what I want and move my body. There is no calorie goal, no burn goal, not even a weight goal or an end date. I’m just changing my life, for life, and it is hard to give the energy I was using up on all of that crap to something else. It is definitely a process.

Anyway, that’s that for now!

Food Budget Week 8

We spent a lot this week, again. $171.49. We did stock up on a few things though, so that number isn’t that bad. Here’s what we bought:


  • Bananas $2.41
  • Broccoli $1.57
  • Carrots $1.59
  • Garlic $.69
  • Habanero $.78
  • Kale $1.99
  • Mushrooms $2.07
  • Onions $1.08
  • Potatoes $.90
  • Acorn squash $3.06
  • Sweet potatoes $3.53


  • Butter $7.99
  • Heavy cream $3.69
  • Gallon milk $3.79
  • Sour cream $2.00
  • Noosa yogurt $10.00 (on special)
  • Eggs $3.39
  • Ham $5.39
  • Turkey $5.29
  • Applesauce pouches $17.88 – we bought two kinds at Costco
  • Assorted organic cereals $19.96
  • Coconut milk $15.98
  • Good Belly juice $5.00 – sounded interesting
  • Peanuts $6.89
  • Pistachios $19.79
  • Arborio rice $6.79
  • Tamari $7.00
  • Crackers $7.00
  • English muffins $3.99