Weigh-in, 5 workouts left, and a little self-sabotage.

So I weighed in last Friday because we were going camping and I wouldn’t be doing it on Sunday. I was down 1.4 pounds to 135.6, and .5% body fat to 30%. I haven’t been 135 since the juice fast, and I don’t remember ever seeing a body fat reading under 30%. So I am making good progress! Except for the self-sabotage that happened after that.

I have a list of excuses. We were camping and I just wanted to enjoy myself. I am super stressed from work. I was feeling exhausted. But I honestly don’t know why I am starting to sabotage my efforts. I have been eating way too many sweets and skipping meals. I overeat the sweets because I am skipping meals. I am not taking care of myself. And I always seem to do that when I hit a big milestone, like getting to a certain weight. Since we came back Sunday afternoon it has just been almost binge amounts of cookies, ice cream, candy, you name it. There is really no reason to overeat that stuff because I am not limiting it in any way. So that is a real wtf? in itself. BUT, I am going to get my control back. Instead of getting frustrated and just giving up, I’m just calling it a bump in the road and I’m going to start to do better. I’m going to get back to the habit tracking which went by the wayside when we left town. That will help immensely! I know that in a couple of days I’ll be doing (and more importantly) FEELING much better.

I skipped a few workouts too, but I’m back at that too. Today I did the Phase 2 workout #19 in the Train to be Awesome program! Now I only have 5 more to go. Then I retest the markers I did before Phase 1 and then I’m calling it done. The focus will turn more to running, with still keeping up the strength. I have to start building up my running if I am going to marathon train next year.

Anyway. Just getting all of that out there, so maybe I can move on. I’m going to eat 3 or 4 meals today, probably 3, with no snacks. My meals will probably include something sweet too. Just a small portion :)

My first hill repeats

Last night I had to stay up way too late, 10:30! I’m getting old, sigh. Anyway I slept in this morning and got out for my run later, so I went on the parkway. It was nice and cool and i was feeling pretty good. The only downside is that we are getting all of the smoke from the California fires right now, so probably not healthy to breathe all of that in for too long. I figured one day won’t hurt?

I mostly kept it at a medium difficulty pace (for me, for today). I tried to go an the dirt trail as much as possible until the end of my run where I did some hill repeats. I’ve never actually done hill repeats before! I don’t even know how long the hill was, I just sprinted up and jogged back down to catch my breath, and I did that 3 times. I thought about doing a couple more but called it good after the 3. I was out for just under 50 minutes and did about 5 miles. For trail running and the hills, this seems pretty good :)

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Screenshot 2015-08-19 08.00.34So enough goofing off this morning – time to go to work! ;)

Another weigh-in and workouts

Sunday morning so I weighed in again. I am up .4 pounds to 137, but the body fat% stayed at 30.5. It would have been nice to see another loss, but I am still down from the beginning of this month.

My workouts this week:


I was going to do a long run of an hour or so, but an employee at work got stranded so I ended up having to go open the store with only 20 minutes! That is my record time. We schedule an hour to get the store open. Anyway, I did about 40 minutes, probably 3.5 miles or so. It was frustrating because I kept getting interrupted on the phone.


Strength. Not much to say about it LOL


Strength again.


Ran about 3 3/4 for a 9:54 pace. Not great, but I remember feeling pretty worn out, so I’ll take it. They can’t all be amazing.


More strength. I’m kind of stuck on weights, I haven’t been able to increase really on anything. So I’m just on repeat. Oh well.


Strength, I have only 10 more workouts left in the Train to Be Awesome program!


Fitbit says I ran 5.11 for a 9:33 pace. Daily Mile said 5.26. I don’t really care LOL It was muggy, I felt like someone might be following me (or they were doing a paper route?), ran by a car accident, and then through construction. And then I went to work. It was a looooong day.

I think I will try and make more of an effort with my food this week. I have been a little lax on eating produce so I will work on that. I tracked 14 days in a row of 3-4 meals! So I’m going to start over and add being hungry for my first meal.

Weigh-in and workouts

First of all the weigh-in. I was gaining small amounts of weight over the last three weeks but today that changed! I really focused this week on the 3-4 meals only, and reigned it it at dinner/treat time. My portions got a lot smaller this week for sure. And I just kept on doing my thing otherwise. It paid off because today I’m 136.6 and 30.5% body fat! That’s the lowest this year on both. I am so close to getting under both 135 and 30%! Those are what I have my eye on now. Hopefully either or both will happen soon!

Also, I don’t really care too much about this one, but I think my BMI is normal now too vs. overweight. So there’s that too :)


I worked all day but I still ran after I got home. I wanted to go outside but the sky was threatening thunder and lighting so I just went on the treadmill. I watched an episode of Sense8 while I ran for about a half an hour. That show is so weird!


TTBA phase 2, workout #7. This was leg focused. I didn’t really feel like I worked that hard, but when I was done I was wiped! I seriously hate single leg split squats, but I know they must be doing a good thing lol


TTBA phase 2, workout #8. Mixed grip chin ups again. I tried to grip really hard and this time it was a little bit better. I am still pretty bad at them.


I got out for an early morning run. I was so tired! But I survived. I did 3.1 in 30 minutes. I also found out that my Fitbit One is shorting me on distance. I checked the miles on Dailymile, and it was off by more than half a mile! I think my Fitbit Surge gives me extra distance lol


Strength again, workout #9. I am getting better at the trap bar deadlifts! That 50 pounds on a 75 pound bar are getting a tiny bit easier?!


Workout#10. I used my smaller resistance band for all of my pull ups. Normally I switch, but I just did as many reps as I could on each set, which was only 3 for the last 4 sets.


I wasn’t sure if I would be able to run today, so I got in a run on Saturday. It was a pretty great one! I did 3.63 miles for a 9:03 pace!! The route I run in the mornings has two long-ish hills, so if I do an out and back I have 3 uphills. Sometimes it is tough! So runs like these are very pleasing to me :)



Goals for this week

I want to start putting a little more thought into what I’m doing for recomp/weight loss. But I’m going to start small. What I’ve been doing is easy, so it needs to stay easy!

I want to make sure I’m getting enough protein. So I’m going to start tracking that and making it a focus in my meals. I’m just going to plan ahead and make sure I choose some protein at every meal. The first day I tracked I got at least 114 grams in, so not bad! 100 grams will be the minimum.

I want to drink more water, or at least make sure I’m drinking a good amount every day. So I’m going to use my water bottle instead of grabbing cups at work and at least try to drink 2 of them daily. That’s 48 ounces.

I’m going to get serious about the lean habits again. So I’m starting over with eat 3-4 meals a day. I’ll go for two weeks and then add the next habit.

And that’s it! No need to make it complicated.


When we went camping last week we spent a lot of time fishing. We ended up going back later in the week to do more fishing! Like I said, mostly fishing, a little hike, and then the rest of the time was spent lounging about, building a fire, or cooking.

Our campsite:


Hiking to Bonnie Lake:


I actually didn’t get any pictures of the lake when we were camping but we went back to fish more on Friday and I snapped some then. It is such a beautiful lake.


It was great and we caught lots of fish! We will be eating that for a while I’m sure. I can’t wait until we go camping again in a few weeks :)

Another weigh-in and workouts

Weighed in again today. The pounds are up a little bit to 138.4 (lowest this month was 137.2), but the body fat% is holding at 31. I also measured since I do that monthly. I am down overall 1 inch, coming from my lower body, and since the first of the year I am down 8.5 inches.

I haven’t been really caring too much about what I ate this week, and I know I was overeating ice cream and treats, big time. I don’t have a good reason, my period did come and that was part of it but I was really overdoing it for whatever reason. I think I have moved past that! We also went camping and while I tried to just stick to 3-4 meals, the overeating treats happened there too. Oh well. I am moving on!! Not going to dwell on it, just going to try and do better. The past few days have been much better too.

As I said we went camping in the Uintas at Mirror Lake this weekend, so my workouts didn’t really happen as planned. I wanted to do more running while up there but it just wasn’t happening this time. I’ve done 3+ mile runs there before, but the altitude wasn’t letting me this time. So I didn’t push it! We mostly fished and just relaxed.


I went for a 3 mile run before we started packing up to go. I went on the parkway trail for a quick in and out. I did 3.29 in 29:51 – making for a 9:04 pace!!


I did a loop around the lake. I wanted to do more but I had gotten a late start and I didn’t want to keep the family waiting too long for breakfast. I thought it was longer around the lake, honestly! I ran for about 20 minutes and 1.5 miles. It was tough.


TTBA phase 2, workout #5. I should have done weights on Monday and Tuesday, so it was extra hard after taking those days off again.


Workout #6. I have been taking a stab at TRX pushups and I am SO sore two days later!! I totally suck at them but I’m going to keep doing it. This one also includes a lot of pull-ups. I am using two different assistance bands, so I do them with the thinner band until I can’t anymore and then switch back to the thicker one. I got about half of them in with the thinner band. I feel like I am regressing here. Oh well.

That’s all she wrote. I skipped 2 days this week, but I wasn’t just sitting around so who cares? Camping is full of lifting and doing. I always feel worn out from it too lol And it was worth skipping workouts :) I’ll share some pictures in my next post!

Not losing muscle and my week in workouts

I weighed in again this morning. I’m up .2 pounds to 137.6, but my body fat% is down .5 to 31%. I’ll take the lower body fat% any day!

Now, I know that the body fat readings on scales are not completely accurate. But I do think it is good for showing trends. I was looking at when I started this year, at 152.2 pounds and 37.5% body fat. I still can’t even believe that it was that high. Anyway, I’m down almost 15 pounds and 6.5% body fat. My lean body mass has almost stayed the same. That would mean I am not losing any muscle! I say that is a good thing :)

So that talk the other day about overthinking and wanting to change stuff, well maybe I should just stick to what I have been doing because it is obviously working. And it is EXACTLY what I wanted to do.

I still do want to stop eating so much ice cream LOL I am eating more than a serving every night. Sometimes I realize I’m not enjoying it as much as I used to, but there are times like last night when I just can’t get enough really. I’m not feeling uncomfortable after I eat dinner and ice cream, like overfull or anything. So I guess there’s that. I don’t know, I am at least going to stop buying it from the store, and just make some when I want some. So maybe that will curb the habit a bit. We’ll see what happens this week. My workouts left me feeling worked over this week for sure. Here’s what I did:


Went for a 6 mile run. My average pace was 9:19!! I’m using my new Fitbit Surge and I really can’t say how accurate it is, but whatever. That pace is possible for me. I am loving being able to get out on the parkway instead of the streets, so I go mostly on the dirt trails. That’s more fun anyway.


TTBA Workout 1. My workouts take me around an hour with a warmup. This one has trap bar deadlifts and we didn’t have a trap bar before so we bought one for this. The bar alone weighs 75 pounds!!! I managed to add 50 more and do my deadlifts. It was tough. There are also some single leg deadlifts that I hadn’t done in a long time. This one left me feeling very sore.


TTBA Workout 2. I tried ring pushups and was successful! I wasn’t able to go down very far, but in the past I haven’t been able to do them at all.


Early morning run! I did 3 miles with a warmup and then a little stretching. I never have enough time to stretch with these early runs.


TTBA Workout 3. The rear foot elevated split squats did me in! They always do.


TTBA Workout 4. I tried mixed grip chin ups for the first time and they are HARD. Up until now I have been doing a neutral grip every time. I am using two different assistance bands and for these I had to use the thicker one for more assistance. Again, hard!

Saturday was a rest day! I am going to get out for another quick run this morning, probably just 3-4 miles.

Phase 2 begins

I started Phase 2 of TTBA this week! I only did one weights workout last week and so I am SORE this week! I am having to do some mods because my right arm is giving me all kinds of hell lately. I’m not sure what to do. If I were smart, I’d probably go to the doctor. But I don’t even know who I would go see. I guess if it is still bugging me in a while I will think about going. Anyway, the workouts seem shorter so far and it is really nice to be doing something different. I found I out I really suck at some things, like one leg hip thrusts. So there is a lot of room for improvement in this phase! I have also decided to try doing 4 workouts instead of 3, so I will be doing less running too. And I should finish the phase in 6 weeks versus 8. We’ll see how it goes.

I’m really battling the overthinking of things these past couple of weeks. At the beginning of this year I decided I would just change two things. I would not drink any alcohol, and I would work out consistently with a focus on lifting. I have been doing that, but I’m starting to feel like it isn’t enough. Which is kind of stupid, because according to all of my data, I’m doing fine. I’m starting to see some biceps even! But looking at myself in the mirror every day makes it hard to see changes. And the changes that are happening are SLOW and SMALL. So I guess I’m getting impatient. I actually went to the IIFYM page to look at a calculator. Then I realized that for me and most people who are not athletes or fitness competitors, macros really don’t matter that much. And really there is no way I would meet the carb goals it set for me – I just like carbs too much! Yesterday I tracked calories too. I ended up with this at the end of the day:

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That was coffee, a piece of leftover frittata and some banana bread for breakfast. Lunch was a peanut bar and a caprese salad bowl (and I’m just realizing I forgot the fig bar I ate too). Dinner was two bean tacos with cheese and sour cream. I also had some ice cream and two pieces of taffy. That was restraint! LOL As far as with the treats anyway! That was a pretty good day, and it is probably just enough of a deficit to make me lose .5 pounds a week if that were every day.

I’m trying not to pick it apart, and I know I won’t be tracking food every day again, but I could do better with less ice cream and I could try to get in more protein. I think I will at least try on the protein and see what happens.

Finished phase 1! And a weigh-in.

Friday was my final workout in phase 1 of Train to be Awesome!! I’m well on my way to completing the whole program! I started it back in April, took a month off due to being sick and then being really fatigued in May, started back up in June and I am finally done now. Now I will do a deload week and then get back at it, starting phase 2. It will be fun to switch up exercises. I was starting to get a little bored. So phase 2 will probably take me another 8 weeks and then I retest markers to see how much progress I made.

It’s kind of funny though, I was so excited to be done, and then really soon after I was over it. Kind of a let down lol. No big fanfare, just time to move on. It IS a big deal though, seeing how I have never finished any program or even part of a program before. I always just quit. So I am pretty proud of myself for sticking with it this long. I still have phase 2 to go, and then I am going to do the next part which is actually a separate part of the program. So after phase 2 I will have really finished a workout program!!

I also weighed in today. I’m at 137.2 and 31.5% body fat. That’s down 2.4 pounds and .5% body fat from last week! Just to show how slow the body fat% moves, it had been 32 for more than a month with no change. I’m getting really close to getting it under 30% now! It will take a few more months, I’m sure, but that is my next goal.

So for the whole year so far I am down 15 pounds and 6% body fat. I won’t measure until the beginning of August so I don’t know about that part, but I imagine I will only be down another inch or so (currently sitting at -7.5).

I keep thinking I would like to work more on the lean habits. Eating 3-4 meals, mastering hunger, eating just enough. But what I am doing right now seems to be working, so I guess I don’t have that much motivation to change lol. I am not eating all day long, and I do try to just eat meals while waiting for hunger. It just always feels like my meals are stretched out at work, and then I have a big dinner with treats every night. Last night I skipped dinner and just went right for the ice cream and m&m’s! Well, after a big bowl of cereal with milk. It was a stressful (and fun) Free Slurpee Day. Anyway about the habits, I guess I will keep trying but not stress about it. The point is to wait for hunger and then eat, without snacking and I am mostly doing that. I could try harder though. I’ll put a little more focus into it this week and see what happens.

Today I was planning on going for a run and then going to work for just a little while, but the run doesn’t sound that great. I’m tired!! It’s been a long week, month, whatever. Maybe I will and maybe I won’t.