Just things

Internets, things are going really well for me right now.  It has been almost 11 weeks since I haven’t had any alcohol and I am feeling awesome about that :D  I have just under 4 weeks to go for my 100 days and I’m confident I won’t start to blow things like I have in the past when I am done.  We are going camping with friends that weekend and I will indulge, but I know in my heart that I do not want to go down the same path I have so many times before.  Too much booze on the regular makes me depressed, gain weight, feel crappy, look old(er), be crabby – I could keep going.  The list of cons far outweighs the pros anymore.  Like I said, I feel confident that just in case I overdo it on the trip, I won’t let it continue and start to negatively affect my life.  I am enjoying feeling great and working out too much to let that happen!

I am enjoying working out!  And my ‘routine’ has changed a lot since I started my 100 days.  I’m mainly lifting weights, heavy weights for me.  It feels awesome.  I’m working my body hard, and letting it recover, and starting to see some improvements. The thought of running doesn’t excite me right now.  It’s pretty fun trying to lift more and do it right.  So I’m sticking with it for now.  I get plenty of activity at work, I’m not really worried about adding even more cardio to it.  Maybe I will want to in the future, and that’s fine too!

I quit weighing myself daily.  I’m not counting calories, and not even tracking on Twogrand much anymore.  I just don’t care I guess?  I’m eating to hunger and probably pretty close to maintaining because I’m seeing very slow changes in scale weight. I’ve finally realized that that is exactly how it should be.  I don’t want to be skinny and frail, I want to be strong and “take up space”.  I know I’ve said stuff like this before, so I can’t say I won’t change my mind, but I hope that I don’t.  I really believe that I am on the right track right now and I want to stay on it!

Not much else to say right now.  Just wanted to share :)

I’m sitting here wasting time on the internets instead of working out.  I ‘should’ be running, or elliptical-ing or something, but I’m not going to.  I lifted weights on Wednesday and I think I was using bad form or I don’t know what, but my knee – not the problem one either! – was seriously bugging by the end of the work day.  I even cut our daily mile after dinner short since it was feeling so crappy.  I came home and iced instead.

Finally I feel like cutting out a workout is a good thing.  Normally I would just keep going until it was too much and I was really hurt and then really screwed, being out of commission for a while.  I’m not going to do that to myself anymore.  Since my focus isn’t really on losing weight anymore, more on just overall health and well being, I don’t feel like I have to go all out every day.  There is no workout schedule to adhere to.  If I need to take a break, I’m going to.  I don’t want to be injured and not be able to work out at all!!  What a revelation. Duh! LOL  I thought I would feel better today but it still feels iffy, so I’m just going to cool it until it feels normal again.

I’m also thinking I need to change up my focus with workouts?  I don’t know.  I kind of just feel achy and stiff all of the time, so I think maybe I need to vary what I’m doing and add yoga back into the mix.  Anytime I regularly do it I feel better overall, so I’m sure it would help.  I think I’m going to get a membership to a nearby rec center so I can take classes.  I just need to bite the bullet and do it.  Yes, I could do it at home, but I’m just really not motivated to do that right now.  I like the group setting and feel like it would be more motivating for me, plus when I think of doing videos by myself it just doesn’t sound like fun.  And I only have so many videos!

I’m almost halfway into my 100 day no alcohol challenge!  As of today I’ve done 6 weeks and 3 days.  5 more days to 50!  I wish I could say that it has been great and fixed all of my problems, but of course it hasn’t :)  I haven’t even dropped that much weight from it.  But, I do feel better.  I like waking up in the morning and only needing coffee, and then being able to workout and feel pretty good throughout my day.  My sleep is so much better.  I am taking a supplement before bed to help me get better sleep, but it is always better without booze.  I’m finally starting to feel like I’m getting enough.  Bottom line is I don’t miss it really, at all.  Am I going to enjoy myself when we go camping in August and my 100 days are done?  Yes!  But then I’m going to move on, and keep it a NOT regular thing.

It’s kind of weird being in the place I am right now.  I’m usually doing some big thing like planning to run a marathon or starting some new eating plan, my life has revolved around weight for the last 10 years or something.  Now I’m just going through my day to day, making sure I am eating enough and getting enough sleep.  Trying to make sure I’m doing what I can for my health.  There isn’t anything exciting going on.  It sounds weird but I guess that is exciting in a way.  I know the only way I can be happy with myself is to do what I know is in line with my goals, and be consistent.  6 weeks is a drop in the bucket, the real challenge is making it last, for a year, then two, and then more.  I haven’t been able to do that up until now, but I’m going to try my hardest to make it happen!



May goals update

Things have been busy, between work, working out, school, getting ready to not have M in school…you know.  Normal stuff.  I guess since May is almost over I’ll just go ahead and update on my goals I set earlier this month.

Start exercising again - I have been doing well with this one!  I had my scheduled workouts, but I haven’t stuck to them to perfectly.  I’ve had to work a few doubles and that really messes with my routine.  Plus it’s hard to get up at 5:00 am if you worked until 11:30 pm :/  I’m also thinking I will revamp my ‘schedule’, or how I want to work out.  I’m not really feeling the running right now, well I am, but I guess I don’t want to HAVE to do it.  And I think I need more strength days right now.  I have been working out at least 5 days a week, sometimes a quick run before weights too.  And toward the end of last week I was starting to feel really burned out.  So I took a few days off.  I think I feel a bit better today, but I’m taking it as a sign that I was just doing too much.  When work gets me well over 10,000 steps alone, I think I’m getting plenty of activity and I probably should just CTFO (chill the fuck out!).  So I’m going to lean toward a different approach, focus on the 3 strength days and otherwise just do what I feel like doing.  I’m not planning on any marathon or other races this year so there is really no need to push the running right now.  I’d rather just do what I want and really enjoy it.  Like hiking :)  Anyway, this one is done!  I’m exercising again!

Do some meal prep on the weekends - I’ve been hit or miss on this one.  That’s not to say that I still haven’t been prepared!  I am still taking food to work almost every day, and there have at least been pre-made salads in the fridge.  I just haven’t been doing it on the weekends, more just when I know I need it for that day or the next one.  I could still do better.  But we aren’t eating out as much as before so this is still a win.

Grocery shop on the regular - As I said up there, we are eating out less, so I guess I am doing this.  It’s all kind of a blur and there aren’t set days for shopping, I just go when it needs to be done.  And I load up on veggies so we will be set for the week.  When we start to run out, I do it again!  As long as we aren’t eating out like 3 times a week, I think we are doing a lot better.

Start keeping my meals in check - I have been posting pics on Twogrand almost daily.  I’m not making too much progress, down maybe a pound and a couple of inches – I know it IS progress, but I want to do better.  So I’m going to start counting calories after the fact.  Probably :lol:  I have done it the last two days and I think as long as I still to a reasonable amount for my activity level, I should be fine and not experience any craziness in my head :)  Last time I shot for a daily goal it was around 2000 per day.  Enough to feel satisfied and not freak out because I can’t have treats!  So I guess I will make a goal to track calories most of the time for the next month and see if that helps my goals.

I also have 30 days under my belt with no alcohol!  It hasn’t been hard, really, just different.  Sometimes I think it will suck being summer and missing out on enjoying myself, but then I get over it.  I don’t need it to enjoy things.  I’m also saving money.  And I feel a ton better than I did a month ago.  I wouldn’t have even had any energy to work out, and getting through the day was becoming a chore.  So I’m glad I quit.  And hopefully my body will start realizing I am trying to do good things for it again and let go of a little weight!


A day on my Fitbit

Yesterday started early yet a little late, I slept for about 15 minutes after my alarm went off so I got up at 5:40.  I have been really good about just getting right up and getting dressed for my runs.  I just did 2 miles, but it was a rough 2!  I did ‘good’ and had a strange tasting protein drink afterward – I tried a Vega shake and did not like it at all.  I’ll stick to Sun warrior until it’s gone and then I have a tub of Plant Fusion I’m excited for.

Back to the subject!  I dropped M off at school and then went straight up the canyon for a hike.  It was a bit chilly at first but I got warmed up right away!  I did the first Pipeline trail in Millcreek and at the fork I went left, to what I think ends up being the Bonneville Shoreline trail.  I think?  Anyway, it took me about 50 minutes to make my way up and then half the time to come back down.  I ran when I could, it is actually easier on my knee somehow LOL.


After that I hit up Trader Joe’s for a ton of stuff I did NOT need.  It was mostly convenience items with a smattering of veggies, and I spent $150!  I guess you really should never go shopping when you are hungry :)  Back home where I met my friends and their kids for lunch.  We made two batches of chile verde over the weekend and so we had some of that.  After two tacos and a salad I was completely stuffed.  After we walked over to the pond to find some goose families I realized my Fitbit was gone! :(  I hoped I left it at Trader Joe’s somewhere, so I had K stop on his way home from work.  I can’t believe it, but it was there!!  Thank goodness!

At the end of the day, here’s what I ended up with.

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It’s a little confused as to how hard that hike was on the way up, I think ;)  And you can see the gap from where I lost it.  It’s not the biggest day I’ve ever had as far as stats, but I’m still proud of it, and it felt really good to get out there and move my body.

While I was in the canyon I paid for an annual pass, so I’m going to try to go as much as I can on my days off.  I’d like to do the same hike a few more times and see if I can improve my time!

Mother’s Day

My kid decided to go sleep over at a friend’s house last night, and K is working today.  So I am spending Mother’s Day morning alone.  I couldn’t even sleep in LOL  I guess my gift to myself will be to enjoy my coffee.  Then I will wait until it is light enough to go out for a long-ish run on the parkway, and hopefully not get rained on – well, too much anyway!  I like running in the rain but it is a little cold right now, like 40 degrees :)  I thought about searching out some eggs benedict, we’ll see.  We had friends over last night so the house is clean.  Clean, quiet, no obligations really.  I can deal with that!

Happy Mother’s Day :)

Getting going on goals

An update on my goals for May so far.

I have definitely been doing the exercise!  This week I:

  • did a run/walk on Monday
  • run/walk again on Tuesday
  • weights on Wednesday
  • run on Thursday – I did 30 minutes straight with no walking!  granted, the pace was pretty slow, but still!

This morning I’m up way too early, woke up at 4:00 and couldn’t sleep.  I have been going to bed around 9:00 though so I still got 7 hours sleep.  I’m having a little coffee and then I’m going to get out for another run, and then do some weights.  I’m scheduled to do the weights tomorrow but I don’t think I will have time.  I forgot I have to get up at 5:00 anyway to make it to work on time!

I’m going to try the New Rules of Lifting for Women program.  I’ve had the book for a long time and started the program once or twice before but never followed through.  It may take me a while since I am only doing 2 workouts per week, but it seems as good as any other program so I’m giving it a shot.  The first workout made me SO sore!  DOMS set in just before bed and it was so bad it woke me up during the night LOL  I hadn’t done any kind of strength workout in months, so I knew it was coming.

I also did good with grocery shopping and meal prep this week, but I could have done better.  I made a few salads for lunches, which is pretty much all I did besides making sure there was food in the fridge to be made into dinners.  But that is a lot more than what I was doing before.  And the salads were awesome.  I meant to make hard boiled eggs but I never got around to it.  I’ll try to do better this weekend and get some more stuff made!  We only went out to eat twice though.  Wednesdays I don’t have to take carpool kids to school so M and I have been going out for breakfast before school.  So we did that, and then last night pizza was on the menu and we went out again to The Pie.  Twice is a big improvement over the past weeks.

I have also discovered a new app for food tracking that looks pretty promising!  I just found it last night so I haven’t played around with it yet, but it looks to be just what I was wanting.  It’s called twogrand.  You can take and add pictures of meals and add workouts too, and follow others and see their meals and workouts too.  I am pretty much only following ETF people right now, not really interested in seeing any disordered eating.  I’m going to play with it today and see how I like it.  Related to food tracking, I had been having ice cream and other treats every day for the past few weeks, but I finally had it in me to go one day without a nightly treat.  The only treats I had yesterday were a girl scout cookie and a piece of chocolate.  I was going to go back for one more piece of chocolate but decided against it.  I was still pretty full from dinner and I didn’t really need it anyway.  I need to do more of that, really listening to my body and giving it what it needs, or staying away from what it doesn’t.

Ok, I have a full day today so I better get going!

I ran today!

Well, it was more of a run/walk, but what counts is that I went!  I made it almost 2.5 miles in 30 minutes, running 3 and walking 1.  My lungs were seriously burning after the first few intervals.  But then it got better.  My plan for the rest of the week is to do some strength training on Wednesday, run again on Thursday and Friday, strength again on Saturday, and then another run on Sunday. Also, I am on Day 8 with no alcohol :D  I still don’t feel fabulous like I’d like to, but I’m getting there.  More sleep, better eating, and regular exercise will get me there.  I hope?! Now I can enjoy my second day off in a row.  Maybe I will go get some coffee before my dentist appointment :/

Making some goals

It’s been a while huh?  Four months since I last posted.  Life has just been busy.  But here I am.  I haven’t been doing the things that I want to do for a long time now, so I thought I’d make some monthly goals again to help nudge me in the right direction.  I’ll get straight to the point.

  • Start exercising again.  I haven’t done any kind of consistent exercise in months.  I’m feeling very out of shape and really wanting to get back into it.  I am back to working full time in a pretty active job, but I still want to get back into running.  I am dreaming of summer morning trail runs.  But it will take me a while to get back there, I know.  So I’m going to just aim for run/walks and a couple of strength training workouts each week.
  • Do some meal prep on the weekends.  My schedule is weird for me still, even though I’ve been working 9-5 most days since March.  I’m still getting used to it.  I get home and it’s just enough time to get dinner and relax for an hour and then it seems like it is bedtime.  Working at 7-11 doesn’t give me too many great choices for food, so I need to bring it from home.  I need to figure out easy things that I can do in the morning to make sure I eat great every day.
  • Grocery shop on the regular.  This goes along with the food planning.  We’ve been eating out way too much because it is easy, we are tired, it sounds more fun than making dinner, the list goes on…I know if we have plenty of good food in the fridge, I will do better and we will all eat better.  So even though it might be tough after work or annoying on my days off, I have to get back to regular grocery shopping for good food.
  • Start keeping my meals in check, somehow.  I’ve thought about calorie counting again and I might.  I’ve thought about just taking a quick pick of meals and posting on Instagram (I’ve only signed up there, not actually used it so this might be a good idea lol).  I get pretty busy during the day and it is easy to go without eating, but I know that isn’t really good for me.  Anyway.  Still working on what I’m going to do here but I’ll figure it out.

These will help me to get back to a more healthy lifestyle, I’m sure.  Here are some other random things.

I’m working full time because K bought a second 7-11!  It has been a busy, tough, and crazy time since March.  Hopefully it will all be worth it in a year or two and he will have loans paid off and such, and we will be in a more secure financial place.  It is a big gamble but it seems to be paying off so far.  Only time will tell.

School is almost out, only about a month to go!  Working more will make summer tricky, but we’ll figure it out.

I’ve decided to do another 100 day challenge, this time it is no alcohol.  I’m on day 4 and feeling really good about it.  It has been time for a break for a while now.  I’m ready to start feeling a lot better without it.  I’m sure it will help me to get more motivated to exercise regularly again.

Obsessed with The Walking Dead right now.  I finished all 3 seasons on Netflix in  about a week?  LOL  I’m waiting for K to catch up and then we’ll figure out how to watch the rest together.

I think that’s about all I can come up with right now.  I’m going to check in weekly with my goals and hopefully by the end of the month they’ll be habits :D

On Meal Planning

I may have come over to the dark side :lol:

I could never wrap my head around meal planning before.  And maybe I still haven’t…  I have always just winged it at meal time.  Protein, veg, starch, all made easy, plain, and usually boring but effective!  A little while ago I saw a link on my Facebook feed for a meal planning website that was giving a 30 day free trial – it is called Plan to Eat.  Now I’m not sure this is the best meal planning website, but I figured I’d try it out for a month and if it helps, great.  If not, I’ll just quit doing it.  So far I am liking it, a lot!!  It does all of the thinking for me!  All I have to do is pick recipes.

You basically import recipes from websites, add them to your planner, and it generates a shopping list for you.  You can add stores so it will just send the items to the store lists you usually buy from – like I know I will buy cheese and eggs at Costco so it just sends those items to that store list.  Really, I like it the most just for that reason!!  I like to try new recipes, but scouring through them and trying to write out a list just annoys me, so I don’t do it.  This does it for me, and I can easily delete items that I know I have on hand already.  You are also supposed to be able to use the list on your smartphone, but so far I haven’t been able to log in on my phone.  I just printed the list out last week.  You can also plan for however long you want – a few days, a week, a month, whatever!  I am going week by week, and only planning dinners for now.

This week we’ve tried a bunch of new stuff, some really great and some that didn’t quite work out so well due to user error ;)  But so far I am enjoying it.  I planned out another week last night and I tried to focus on using stuff we have on hand already.  Once I had it all done and unchecked items I didn’t need, I hardly had anything on the list that I need to buy!  I will have to add some staples and stuff for other meals, mostly produce, but I’m excited to see just how much we end up getting, and I hope it is less than the $150 we want to spend for the week.  I am going to do my best to only go shopping one day a week, unless we really need something that we run out of or forget to pick up at the store

Here’s what I’m planning for the upcoming week!

Chicken Alfredo

Beef tacos

Butternut squash and coconut soup

Baked sweet potatoes with caramlized onions - we will have some baked salmon with this

Crock pot beans with a ham shank

White bean and chicken chili

Baked farro risotto and green beans with hazelnuts and thyme

I am also going to make some Lunchbox Oatmeal Bars and these molasses cookies, just to use up some almond flour and carob molasses that I have.


Fighting the diet urges

I still haven’t been doing great in regards to living a healthy lifestyle.  This month has pretty much been zero exercise and too much booze.  I don’t want to keep yo-yoing so I’ve been trying to think of ways I can really make a difference in my life and health.  I know I need to make consistent, long-term changes, made by practicing daily habits.  While I want to do something challenging to kick-start change, I also know that I need to keep things relatively easy or I just won’t stick to it.  I’m fighting a lot of thoughts to start a diet or a new plan, but I know that isn’t really what I want to do.  So I made a quick list of things I could do to help me out.

And we are going to do a couple of ‘big’ things.  We are going back to the Real Food Challenge, with some exceptions of course ;)  While we do this we are also going to stop eating out at restaurants.  We have been doing this way too much, and while I do like it for the most part, it is just too much money being wasted!  Especially since I am pretty picky about my food!  So we are going to cut that out.  We are going to be really strict for the next 6 months, about 80 days longer than the 100 days we did before!  I know we will all feel better.

Anyway, here’s what I came up with besides that.

  • Aim for balanced meals
  • Eat more salads/veggie based meals
  • Eat more beans and fish
  • Cut out alcohol and other empty calorie drinks
  • Eat real food, avoid processed food (as above)
  • Quit eating out
  • Get enough sleep!!  (I’m really failing on this one)
  • Exercise daily, some days just walking will be my exercise
  • Make exercise/fitness goals – my main ones right now will be to restart and complete the Train to be Awesome programs, and to work back into running when the air gets better here.  I’m dreaming of actually doing the marathon again this year, but I guess I’ll wait to see how it goes, and if I would even have the funds to do it.
  • Do other things that I enjoy more, like knitting, spinning, reading, playing more games with M and such.

I really hope that I can start to turn things around for good.  I’m tired of ‘doing good’, or starting and stopping.  My life just keeps on going, whether or not I think I’m starting fresh or whatever :lol:  There isn’t any stopping!  I have to get this through my head and just try to do my best every day.  I hope that this year I can get all of the weight-related junk out of my head and just enjoy my life.